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HEAVY
04:27
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When I was young, thought I’d grow stronger than I was
Thought it’d be fun, just being older than I was
I didn’t know, my blues were muddy and brown
Thought I was wrong, for wanting to be a son
I’ve got my layers, piles, mountains of skin
Process of molting, for me it started from within
I'm heavy, but I'm fine
I'm stronger, but I'm tired
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CONFUSING GLORY
02:16
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I'm no longer living for perfection, I won't be guided by your rules
I used to fear the word damnation, but I'd go to Hell to get away from you
I found your love was suffocating. An algorithm of translated truths
I fell for your imagined favour, but I lost myself in the search for you
I miss believing in your stories but naive is not a way to be
Some friends still walk inside your grace
but spare me your confusing glory
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'OTHER'
04:20
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My story is largely untold but it’s not close to unique
The clouds of us have gathered under labels close to ‘freak’
I know I’m not the only whose voice is not their own,
and I know I’m not alone in that my form is not my home
I know I’m not the only one who feels the way I do,
when will I see our stories in any other shade than blue?
How can I feel such disconnect and easement all at once
I’m more okay as an ‘other’ than putting on a front
I don’t feel the need to fit into a destined mould
I know my role, never a daughter not a son
I never know which line to sing in all my favourite songs
Be it the words, the lines, the feelings, there’s often something wrong
I want to hear more love songs from the eccentric, from the weird
A tender precious heart holding between two of queer
Magical array that can’t be contained just in two
There’s strength in showing softness when it’s tough they want from you
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GLOSSY TEETH
03:44
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Straightened hair and glossy teeth
Nice to you but not to me
I didn’t know I’d fit those jeans
Nothing about us was the same
Except the roles we played in games
Yet i was placed in your domain
It wasn’t you that I hated
It’s that you were what they wanted from me
We both grew and I made it
I’m happy and I’m nothing close to you
Oh, I wish I knew
I wish I knew
Quiet tone and white tipped nails
The epitome of pretty and frail
While bugs and dirt were my holy grail
When traced with you I couldn’t compare
If life's a race then it isn’t fair
Freedom was my secret prayer
It wasn’t you that I hated
It’s that you were what they wanted from me
We both grew, I wouldn’t have made it
If I wasted years attempting to be like you
But I wish I knew
Oh I wish I knew
If I could go back, I’d tell me that there’s another way to live
Erase the lines from which inside I once tried to live
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5. |
NO GOOD AT GOODBYES
03:08
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I hold onto clothing after I’ve far outgrown them
I keep them in my contacts when I’ll never reach them
My closet’s filled with boxes of stuff I’ll never use
The injury was years ago, but I’ve still got the bruise
White knuckling everything within my eyes
I can’t let go, I cannot lose because
I’m no good at goodbyes
My nest has passed its cozy phase moved into a hoard
SD cards, old cell phones, every sound I could record
My arm is sore from reaching out to those who’ve moved beyond
I write down all my nightmares, all my dreams and all my wants because
I’ve been gripping onto everything that’s within my sight
I can’t let go, I cannot lose because
I’m no good at goodbyes
And I know you think it’s easier to breathe
Without the hounding countless shadows so I can feel the breeze
I can’t Kondo my emotions even though it would be nice
Oh I’ve tried and I’m tired
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Lennon Sykes Ontario
queer musings translated into acoustic soft folk music
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